But the worst thing is that de laura fell in love for the first time... During the confinement period, he could no longer study the sacred scriptures that he loved and yearned for, and he could not understand the word of god, so he could only keep asking question, muttering to himself in confusion. Gradually, he couldn't suppress his desire, he gave up understanding god's sacred word in the original way, sneaked into the underground of the monastery every night, and lingered with maria. And re-understanding the so-called "Sacred" and "Martyrdom" in this painful lingering.
He finds that in order to prove that ghost mannequin effect he really loves maria, he does almost everything. For example, when maria jokingly asked him to eat a cockroach to prove his love, he immediately grabbed one and stuffed it in his mouth. It was the first time he felt that the body didn't belong to him."
Love, as if from redemption to a fall, because in it there is always some kind of madness trying to burn itself, and in order to keep burning, everything is done. This may be why marquis always writes about the theme of love in his works. In love, there is always a force that wants to get rid of the constraints of society and reason, and let people regain a kind of vitality to face the reality of repeated oppression.